Some real soul searching going on tonight. Some scary things happening at my house tonight. Finally called my son and his dad to come over. ( pretty cool that my son is big enough and confident enough to protect me). I realized tonight that the ex boyfriend was never there even when we were dating. He called today and I finally got it ” dude you never cared, ever. Delete my number.” Regardless I deleted his. I need to change some things in my life. I am going to wake up tomorrow as someone new.