Just saw an ad for Zac Efron’s new movie. Can ibe arrested for the thoughts I am having about him?
Big day at the orthopedist tomorrow! Hoping that I am such a good healer that I will be back at the gym soon!
Bars sucked this weekend . Except San Antonio.

In the midst of feeling horribly sorry for myself , my dad was rushed to the hospital. He has COPD and sometimes he really can’t breathe. So scary. I can’t imagine feeling like you are suffocating. He was definitely depressed today when I talked to him . Watching my parents getting older disspells this idea that aging is graceful. That’s a beautiful dream but aging isn’t graceful. I think the best you can do is come to peace with the deterioration of your own body.
Yesterday while having my pity party, two people laughed at my fractured foot and said ” well I can’t lie it gives me joy that you can’t work out so hard.” I found that so mean. Yes I work out all the time but it’s probably more for my brain then my body. So last night I let myself feel bad and this morning I woke up and my first thoughts ” fuck them, I can figure out work outs.” so today I did 200 sit ups, I perched my legs on the big ball and did 100 push ups . Then I did 15 minutes just using arms on the rowing machine. ” screw you haters”
Our Russian partners are letting me postpone until I see the orthopedist. Hopefully he can create some contraption that can keep me safe for the trip. I wonder if he can match the height of the cast to some incredible stilettos? Lol

Sitting in ER. Just had my foot X-ray ed. “I couldn’t see a break in your foot but I am sure it is fractured and the X-ray isn’t showing it” well Doc what about tendinitis ? ” no it’s fractured, you need a specialist for ultrasound” doc it’s Easter no one is working” fUCK! I convinced him to give me a boot instead of a cast because I am supposed to go to Russia on Monday. Fuck
On a side note. A man came into the ER with a gun shot wound to the groin. He was calm. Talking to the admitting nurse like he was asking directions.

Another anniversary down. The Milwaukee anniversary wasn’t as full as I would of liked. Ernie is the new GM there and doesn’t have the connections yet to secure a great turn out . Mellinda, Daniel, Ernie and I had a great time just laughing. I told Ernie that we can plan a big DO OVER party in the summer. At one point I looked around and I felt like I was in a 3 show tv episode. You had the Big Bang Theory type guys. Then there was the Dallas Cowboy cheerleader types . And to top it off there were the regulars who could be plucked out of the movie Barfly.
Thanks for the beautiful sketch!

Tao of Jogging. Before I started jogging ; I thought of myself as a person who never quit anything . After I started jogging short stints; I realized that I didn’t quit things I thought I would win. Now that jogging is more a part of my life; I realize that I need to find fulfillment in trying even without winning. A life’s lesson.
My foot is fucked up not sure I can enter next weeks Crescent City Classic. Heading to Milwaukee Wednesday. Then on April 9th I head to Russia.